somedays.

i just want to be married and have my own family and work in our garden.

... in front of our treehouse/cottage on a grassy knoll in the middle of rolling fields.

and drive my volkswagen van around.

and theres a lake nearby.

in which i kayak around sometimes. or sometimes just swim to the island in the middle of it.

and ride a horse to the other side of the property where some of our dearest friends live with their children. and sometimes we have community dinners lit by twinkle lights hanging from a giant tree in the middle of our field. with swaying tall grasses.

and crickets.

yeah.

i'd like that to happen.

but the fact it's happened in my dream world will do.